Tuesday, July 30, 2013

My struggle this morning

A friend told me not too long ago that I was going through a "grieving process".  I was talking with her about how one day I'm fine, handling this new 'adventure' with excitement and confidence that God is leading us (even if we don't know where!).  But then the next day (or next hour) my heart is hurting and I am crying out to God asking Him why He's allowed things to happen the way they've happened. 
My friend said it's all part of the "grieving process". 
As I thought about it, I realized she was right.  When you love people, you care about them and they become an intregal part of your life, there's a real sense of loss when they are no longer there in your life.  Whether by choice or not, people come and go from your life and if you've become vulnerable enough to allow them to get close to you, it hurts when they are not there anymore. 
I know I am not alone in feeling this way from time to time.  I know there are folks that have felt this way or gone through these emotions.
I can only hope that there is growth that comes from this.  I don't believe God would allow us to walk through these things without it being for His glory and to bring us closer to Him.