It's as if God is prepping me for the next phase of my life. I am nervous and weirded out about what that may be!
When we moved from Florida, I was so scared and anxious. I was leaving everything and everyone that I loved and following my husband to go and minister in a new place to new people with new challenges. I had peace, but I was scared. I had never been what you would call a "gentle, meek" wife! I was in no way what I would consider a "pastor's wife" should be! But, when we got here, my sweet friend, Lora, made me understand that God doesn't call each of us to be in this cookie cutter mold of a Christian! He could and would use me the way I am as long as I was willing to surrender my will to Him and allow Him to use me!
So, now, I am at a different crossroad in my life. When I look around me, the youth are getting younger and I am getting older! I see a new generation of leadership coming up to work with and guide these kids. This generation of 20ish year olds have so much to offer. But I see myself "phasing out". I gotta be honest, it scares me. I love working with the teenagers. I love them like they were my own! But I know I can't be and do everything for them...and God doesn't want me to!!! So, the opportunity that God is setting before now is to be a mentor to the Young Adult Leaders and allow them to be the role models for the youth. THIS IS SO SCARY! I keep thinking that God must be joking. He doesn't know what He is asking. I don't know how to mentor anyone over the age of 18!!! I still feel like a Young Adult myself (most of the time!). What do I have to offer...?
I have the Lord leading me and guiding me! I have the wisdom and experience from mistakes and choices I've made! I have friends who encourage and remind me of how God uses me daily (THANK YOU CMHCMM FRIENDS!)! I have family who supports and prays for me! I have a Godly husband who loves me, supports me, accepts me (and my flaws!) and prays for me!
So, when the next opportunity comes my way, I'm not gonna say that I will not be scared or nervous because that would just be an downright lie!!! But, I will be ok with it as long as God leads me!
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.