Thursday, February 2, 2012

Opportunity Knocks!

In the past few months, God has been giving me more opportunities to "spread my wings".  I have had more opportunities to step out of my comfort zone.  I have had more opportunities to do things I wouldn't have really chosen to do.
It's as if God is prepping me for the next phase of my life.  I am nervous and weirded out about what that may be!

When we moved from Florida, I was so scared and anxious.  I was leaving everything and everyone that I loved and following my husband to go and minister in a new place to new people with new challenges.  I had peace, but I was scared.  I had never been what you would call a "gentle, meek" wife!  I was in no way what I would consider a "pastor's wife" should be!  But, when we got here, my sweet friend, Lora, made me understand that God doesn't call each of us to be in this cookie cutter mold of a Christian!  He could and would use me the way I am as long as I was willing to surrender my will to Him and allow Him to use me!

So, now, I am at a different crossroad in my life.  When I look around me, the youth are getting younger and I am getting older!  I see a new generation of leadership coming up to work with and guide these kids.  This generation of 20ish year olds have so much to offer.  But I see myself "phasing out".  I gotta be honest, it scares me.  I love working with the teenagers.  I love them like they were my own!  But I know I can't be and do everything for them...and God doesn't want me to!!!  So, the opportunity that God is setting before now is to be a mentor to the Young Adult Leaders and allow them to be the role models for the youth.  THIS IS SO SCARY!  I keep thinking that God must be joking.  He doesn't know what He is asking.  I don't know how to mentor anyone over the age of 18!!!  I still feel like a Young Adult myself (most of the time!).  What do I have to offer...?

I have the Lord leading me and guiding me!  I have the wisdom and experience from mistakes and choices I've made!  I have friends who encourage and remind me of how God uses me daily (THANK YOU CMHCMM FRIENDS!)!  I have family who supports and prays for me!  I have a Godly husband who loves me, supports me, accepts me (and my flaws!) and prays for me!

So, when the next opportunity comes my way, I'm not gonna say that I will not be scared or nervous because that would just be an downright lie!!!  But, I will be ok with it as long as God leads me!

Jeremiah 29:11

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

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