The series he started is about fresh air and the need for it in order to revive our souls. I gotta tell you, I felt like he was speaking directly to me. I sat there thinking "Yep, I do that. Yea, I've felt that. Oh yea, I've done that to get through." Well, I don't want to just "get through". I want to breathe FRESH AIR again!!! I want the Lord to fill me up! I want to be so in love with Jesus. I want to obey Him out of desire and not duty (1 John 5:2-3). So...
A couple of things I need to do:
- Stop faking it! Yes, the smile you see on my face is not ALWAYS how I am inside. God is Faithful though! He WILL restore to me the joy of my salvation!!! (Psalm 51:12)
- Fall in love with Jesus again. I remember what it was like when Claude and I first fell in love! I would do anything to make him happy. I WANT that with Jesus!!! I will pursue Him and fall in love with Him again!!
- DIG UP ROOTS OF BITTERNESS. This one will be my biggest challenge. Unfortunately, I have allowed bitterness to take root in my heart. I have allowed satan to use that to hurt me and my testimony (Hebrews 12:15). NOT ANYMORE! It will take alot of prayer, courage, and strength but I will dig out those weeds, all the way down to the roots!!!
- Forgive myself and others. Hurt is inevitable in life. People are human and they will let me down. I have no choice but to give the same grace and mercy that Jesus gave to me. I will also forgive myself. I am human too! I do things that I don't want to do, but my flesh does it anyway (Romans 7:15-18). Thank God I am forgiven!!!
Time to breathe in that FRESH AIR!